I get up early, make toast and coffee, and go to the University to work. A water bottle is in my little purse. The sun is scorching. There were days when the temperature reached 30º C at 8 a.m. As my belly is huge and heavy I feel very hot, but if I drink a lot of water, I have to go to the bathroom every half hour. It's been a few weeks now that I have not slept a single night long. And that contributes to me waking up tired. At the end of the day, my feet are very swollen and my legs hurt. Now at the end of the pregnancy, the pressure in the womb is so great that I can feel my veins dilated in the perineum. I hope that after she is born my body recovers well, I demand a lot from myself in terms of my health. Every day I try to walk a lot because the doctor said this is a great way to bring conditions for natural labor.
I am not idealizing childbirth, but I really wanted it to be natural. The pain scares me, but I know there is a wolf inside me. My mother and grandmother gave birth to their daughters, so I am sure I will be able to bear it too. The transformation of gestation is present, and today I am no longer the same woman as one year ago. I see the world differently now. Before, I did not even notice pregnant women and people pushing wheelchairs and baby strollers on the bumpy streets. Today, when I see a pregnant woman, I know that there is a whirlwind going on in her heart and mind. I know she carries a small world in her womb. And I marvel at the efforts of those who push a cart through these streets, tired and without much choice.
At the end of the afternoon, I return home walking. It takes me about 20 minutes to reach my place. If I can finish early I stop by the grocery store or go for a walk to help loosen the ligaments in my hip. Every day I walk at least 5 kilometers. I hope this helps my baby to find her way. I only have one pair of shoes and one slipper that fit my swollen feet. However, the desire to walk around as if I were going to find a little piece that is missing, oh, that I have in abundance. I know that I will not regret this effort.
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